Day 12 - My goals

I want to put in my goals - to really put them down - and shoot for them! So here is me: where I started and where I'm going in the short term.

"They" (I'd love to know who that is!) say - the first step in achieving your goals is to write them down. So, that step is done. :-)

Today, I had to squeeze the last 3 workouts into about 5 hours but I got them in. I also started taking my son's fish oil (I gave mine up a few days ago which totally stopped my indigestion) - and like magic my appetite came back. I don't know if it was the fish oil but something was better today.

I'm sort of worried about the 24 hours of traveling on Thursday/Friday. It means I will miss my Friday workout (leave here Thursday at 2 pm, get there Friday at 8 pm) and it means I need to carry a good bit of food with me that will get thru security. Any ideas? I can't have anything to keep it cold because they will throw that out. I tried ordering a gluten free menu on KLM (which they appear to offer but don't really) - but it probably has other stuff I can't have. I'd appreciate any ideas!

Lastly, tomorrow is weigh in/measurement day. Busy day for me too as I leave on Thursday and I have to pack up my office too because we are moving buildings while I am gone - but I'm going to do my FOUR ! Food good, workouts good, muscles SORE. Good day!

Day 11 - Oooohhh! Obesity killing us as fast as smoking.

Today I am on day 2 of low carb - and again I cannot eat. I am literally gagging my food down. My goodness if I had known this secret - well, I THINK I would have tried it...? But who knows?

I'm also struggling - we got new exercises today and the last two I didn't have a chance of doing. It was laughable. Then I started thinking about all the others that seem to breeze thru this stuff. Everyday now, I have some pain, some pull, some something. But here is the funny thing - I keep on. Every morning I get up, feel my body to see if things are working in an OK way - and then set off again on another day. Wow. Why? I want to know why - so I can keep on doing it! :-) Truly -what trigger has changed in my mind that is having me get up, record, block out time, blog, etc. all the while it hurts (so good sometimes and so bad other times).

I saw this article: http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/news/fullstory_93734.html


I thought - yes, that's right - I'm killing myself.

THIS (http://www.londonpersonaltrainingstudio.com/) is what is driving me to save myself - but what is behind that? It all comes down to that - right? How did I get this way?

Well - enough philosophy... Time for bed so I can get up and do it all over again. Also I have to figure out what I can pack to take on the plane to eat (that will make it thru security). Hopefully I have a little appetite back by then!

I hope everyone else is doing great! Tomorrow is a new day - and ONE of these days I'm going to be able to do ALL the exercises :-)

Day 7 - Learning to Breathe

Today was a success. I'm calling it that anyway. Our son's tests went MUCH better than we had feared - which goes to show you that worry doesn't help anything. We managed to get home (through the ice and snow). Our handicapped helper was here so we could take a break also.

So - today I thought about what feels different for me this time. (I've only done 1,014 diets to date) Have you ever tried this? It is the night before your diet starts, or the day after your diet starts, or a week in, etc. and you sit and calculate how much you are going to lose, in which period of time, and by what date. Over and over again. I have always done this. Planned perfection.

Why is this different? Because it's 30 days? Because the intensity is high (I have a tendency to add and add and add things to my diet plan (like HOURS of workouts) to make sure I'm covering everything) already? Because there is a group of people doing it? I don't know really.

I do know that normally my life is like this: Breath IN - HOLD YOUR BREATH. Perform everything, as well as possible, as perfect as possible, as extremely as possible until until until .... you have to let out your breath. Then suddenly I find myself saying, "Well I breathed out... so I might as well (fill in the blank - have some wine, have some pizza, not exercise for a few days, give myself a break, etc.)" The problem is the breathing out is followed by a LONG delay before I can gear myself up to breathe in again.

This time, I'm breathing IN and OUT. Not perfectly. But I am. Today, I did my exercises this morning, we did all the tests with our son, then we came home. I laid down for a 1 hour nap before going to work out more and I woke up 6 hours later. I decided since it was already almost 7 pm that I would just breathe out today. And breathe in - tomorrow morning. No extremes. Just breathing.

My body cried out (mentally) "Take a rest". And I listened. And I don't see it as a great failure - but a simple down step with the many up steps we've been taking.

For today- I consider the process of learning to breathe - and to keep doing the process - a success! Good night :-)

P.S. Weight and measurements tomorrow. I cannot follow Dax. He posts that we should do weigh ins in the middle of my days (so weigh in for Day 6 in the middle of day 7 or some such). So I'm going with what I got! Let's hope it's good :-)

P.P.S. I'm of the magnesium. Thank you Melissa you were right - even the tiniest dosage has a bad effect on me! At least I know what to use if I ever get the other problem :-)